Welcome to my blog. I document my adventures and experiences with Kundalini energy. Hope you have a nice stay!
Do you feel a 12 out of 10 crazy when you look in the mirror? Do you shake, vibrate, pulsate and feel electric crawling all over your body? Do you feel burning and acid rain in your brain? Have you diagnosed yourself with several different neurological conditions?
After months of solitude and going within I realized that there was an infinite depth to this emptiness that I had been sifting through. It was bottomless.
As I was looking back at the bear while I was walking away there was a moment where I was sure he was going to charge at me. For a brief few steps it felt inevitable.
The surge in fear and anxiety you are experiencing along with the increased mind activity are all signs of the kundalini purifying process. When we are releasing old energies, patterns and fears our minds can interpret this as something to be concerned about (it is a survival machine after all) but rest easy knowing that this is part of the process and all is going according to plan.
“The spiritual journey is actually about discovering what in you is always beyond your personal desires. Life’s only going to dismantle your will and make it seem like you have no choice because the only choice you need is choosing to be where you’re at. And the more you choose to be where you’re at, the more you lose sight of where you think you need to be, and all the feelings you think that are going to be over there, are going to start showing up here, when we fully arrive.”
There is a major misunderstanding in spirituality when it comes to the word ‘darkness.’
This unhealthy habit of relying on others to provide us love establishes that we need to take or get something from someone else in order to feel good about ourselves.
You have a choice: end the separation that the mind has created between you and the energy by becoming the energy, or stay interested and persuaded by what the mind is projecting and suffer.
The most powerful weapon that is being used against you and your creative impulses and inspirations is the shrinking of your attention span.
After much trial and error, I can say without hesitation that there is only surrender; everything else is pain.
It is the manifest(ing) and creat(ing) that we desire not the manifestations and creations. The destination is just an excuse for the journey because in Truth there is no destination only eternal growth and expansion.
When we begin to know that our beliefs and thoughts are the source of all of our pain and suffering, yet we are unable to stop the momentum of the unconscious beliefs, it can become a disconcerting situation, to say the least.
These kittens know intimacy, playfulness, pleasure, trust and peace with such grace and ease. As fiercely as they play with one another a gentle tenderness is always present.
I formatted this blog a little differently. It is purely informational and to the point. I put together this timeline for those of you that are going through something similar or are unsure of what you are going through. I hope this informational timeline provides valuable material that you are able to relate to.
My guided meditation with my teacher was peaking in intensity. I was feeling dizzy, completely out of my body and as if I was about to throw up. Karma, fear, and limited beliefs were being burned away by all the light coming in. My teacher asked me, “Do you trust?” I stammered, “No, yes, not right now.”
When we connect with the knowing that we are infinite beings who are multi-dimensional and that death is an illusion nothing in this world is ever needed again
Follow the feelings as they change within you. Allow yourself to be completely and utterly overwhelmed and immersed by your feelings.
In this video I talk about the events leading up to my Kundalini Awakening.
