Welcome to my blog. I document my adventures and experiences with Kundalini energy. Hope you have a nice stay!
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The answer I immediately received was this, “I wanted to bring myself into the Present moment and to create a situation where I had to no choice but to surrender into the intelligence of Life.”
Until you are able to see and feel how your pain is serving you, it will remain.
When we connect with the Silence, we connect with the knowing that our kundalini journey is going to work out.
In truth, the outcomes and destinies are actually the aspects of life that don’t matter at all. We just think that if things happened in a certain way, we would feel better. And maybe we would, until the next thing we needed to happen a certain way went awry.
I was mesmerized and terrified by the power of the energy. It was this energy of extreme bliss and destruction. It felt like an omnipotent lightning bolt that contained all of creation inside of it.
“Take care of your body, it’s the only place you have to live.” -Jim Rohn
During a spiritual awakening, most of us will find that our outer life will come to a screeching halt for awhile.
We talked about how if you are deeply anchored enough in the ‘Self’ that being the witness or the Presence to all that is happening becomes the primary reality, and that the ‘play of life’ is the secondary reality.
It is important to understand that these purges are intended to be intense and are going to take you to your edge.
Do you feel a 12 out of 10 crazy when you look in the mirror? Do you shake, vibrate, pulsate and feel electric crawling all over your body? Do you feel burning and acid rain in your brain? Have you diagnosed yourself with several different neurological conditions?
After months of solitude and going within I realized that there was an infinite depth to this emptiness that I had been sifting through. It was bottomless.
As I was looking back at the bear while I was walking away there was a moment where I was sure he was going to charge at me. For a brief few steps it felt inevitable.
The surge in fear and anxiety you are experiencing along with the increased mind activity are all signs of the kundalini purifying process. When we are releasing old energies, patterns and fears our minds can interpret this as something to be concerned about (it is a survival machine after all) but rest easy knowing that this is part of the process and all is going according to plan.
“The spiritual journey is actually about discovering what in you is always beyond your personal desires. Life’s only going to dismantle your will and make it seem like you have no choice because the only choice you need is choosing to be where you’re at. And the more you choose to be where you’re at, the more you lose sight of where you think you need to be, and all the feelings you think that are going to be over there, are going to start showing up here, when we fully arrive.”
There is a major misunderstanding in spirituality when it comes to the word ‘darkness.’
This unhealthy habit of relying on others to provide us love establishes that we need to take or get something from someone else in order to feel good about ourselves.
